Differences and Disappointments

this is my fourth posting on this blog.

i thought about using numbers for each post but i'll probably do that later after i've used up the letters of the english alphabet. i have to think up or think of something to write about now everytime i do a posting. it's still going to be random. (I'm already wondering what titles to use for the letters Q, X and Z. Oh joy !)

i guess i should have started my first posting with Aspirations, as in what i am aiming for with this blog. (gee, aiming starts with the letter A too !)

anyway, its differences and disappointments for now, as in differences in attitudes, opinions, taste,etc. can lead to disappointments.

i was lying in bed last night and got to think about why we never can please everybody.
i wouldn't even think of trying - it's bound to be the most frustrating and futile (now i have probable titles for the letter F), and in some instances - hurtful, thing you could even consider doing. (yeah, i felt bad about something someone said. it wasn't WHAT was said but HOW it was said. and yes, i got over my bad feelings. you'll soon see how.)

we need approval. and if not everyone approves of how we do things or live our life, tough.
so be it. no use beating yourself up or the disapprovers.

the most i can do and will do, if i eventually prove myself wrong, is apologize and make things (or feelings) right, if i could.

that said, i'd like to share with whoever reads this, the words to a song i heard years ago, growing up, which is one of the things which i easily recall whenever i feel i have let someone down.

it's a song done by herb alpert, to me one of the best trumpet players. and as i remember, it was titled Polyanna. i haven't been able to find it in any of his records or CDs in the market or online. but i swear i am not making this up.

so here are some of the lines from the song and i hope you agree with me too that it's a good rebound to give anyone whose expectations of us we have failed to live up to.

Pollyanna

why should you be disappointed in me
i disagree with your point of view
i don't just exist in your life
i also exist in my life
and just like a tree, it belongs
i belong
you never would question a tree
whatever i do i'd be faithful to you
i have to be true to myself as well.

and it goes on except that i don't remember the rest of it.

the words summarize for me how i would like a relationship to work. we would always have our differences and disagreements. we could lessen our disappointments if we also remember that we also make mistakes and misjudgements. it doesn't have to be just with your significant other but also with your parents, siblings and friends.